I'm adrift. There aren't words to express how I feel. I'm dipping back into my subconscious. Dipping back into my former self. Recoiling into my former shell that protected me for so long. It feels as though a part of me is dying. A part of me is withering into nothing. I'm slowly losing my ability to communicate verbally. I'm debilitating into a metal mess. The more I realize this, the more I sink inside myself. The more my speech drains into dribbled words. The more I lock myself inside my mind. The more I crumble internally.
Where am I going? In what direction will I go?
Am I going forward, backward, or in circles?
I don't have a voice. I have only sounds. Uttered nonsense. No kindred soul. No like mind. I'm alone...and returning to my former self is the most painful experience that I am experiencing. I'm unsure where I will end. Where I will begin.....?
When do I begin.....?
Who am I......?
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